I know, I know, no one’s here anymore. Hello empty room, how are you? Anyway, just dropping in to say we signed our first contract sixteen years ago today. Crazy to think it’s been that long. Good thing we don’t have to worry about that stupid DD thing anymore!
Yeah right, that’s what I’d thought I’d say by now. That I’d mature, become an incredible cleaner and cook, a mom that has her life together, or maybe even a fraction of all that and no longer a hot mess. To progress beyond DD. But nope, no chance of that, for some reason my brain seems to require this pesky way of doing things to function. So we’ll probably be doing this until we’re invalids. Lucky me.
And I’m in a bit of trouble presently for a pretty dumb reason, not that that’s a rare thing for me. You’d think he’d give me today off being that it’s our anniversary for all this stuff, but telling Jay that turned out to be a bad idea. Laughing and suggesting I get double then was what I got for that half-baked idea. Tyrant.
Okay, really, he’s pretty fair, even if he sometimes has too much fun teasing at my expense. When it comes down to why we do this and our roles, though, both of us know that it helps us, and well, that it’s just our life, as hard to explain as it is. That part is pretty serious and we stay on the same page, even if we can’t explain why even after this long why this thing seems to be the best thing that works for us.
So anyway that’s all I have to say for right now. I might even be back a bit. Even if no one’s here, I miss sharing my thoughts sometimes. Things aren’t always easy in this dynamic (how do I every time forget how much spankings hurt until they’re happening?!), and venting helps sometimes, even if I’m just writing to write. Or to motivate myself sometimes, haha. All my role models are gone, after all. But if anyone by any chance finds this, hi, I’m Kay, I’m unapologetically me. And this is my life.
