The Latest from My World

So life has kind of gotten away from me again and I've had to step out of Blogland; I feel so bad! The good news is it's because I'm a working woman at present and that's really helping my family. The bad news is is that I miss all of you terribly and I feel bad that I'm totally out of the loop on what's going on in your lives. You are all in my prayers though and hopefully soon I can catch up to all I've missed in our community and welcome all the latest newbies too. :)

The other bad news is that keeping up the house is becoming really difficult LOL, even with Jay's help. I feel I'm always playing catchup these days and not always succeeding. There just doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day. I don't even get to access Facebook or Pinterest or Google Reader hardly at all these days. 

Well except for right now. I've been down for four days and counting with a nasty bug, and thanks to the wonder of being able to have my phone in bed with me now that I feel a little better, I thought I'd write all of you a quick hello and update finally. A silver lining to every cloud, right? Even being sick! :)

We're actually doing well. God has blessed us so much. Jay is still respected at his job. I've been driving him crazy with all my jobs that I've been doing lately, because they've been very stressful on me, some perhaps too much, but we've needed them, and his encouragement and support has meant everything. 

My father-in-law is still driving us crazy, but at least we're in it together, and Jay feeling the same way as I do helps me a lot. And at least he sleeps in the garage now of his own choice. But beyond that there doesn't seem to be an end in sight. It's frustrating, but we're resigned to it at the moment.

Our adorable son is still a handful, being that he is still two, but I feel I can manage things most days. I can't say I don't live for the weekends though during times I'm not working, when I know Jay will be around to help me (and gain new appreciation for what I go through during the week, ha!). 

So that's about everything there is to tell.  

Oh yeah, this is a DD blog, huh? So I guess you want to know that part of it too, like if I've been staying out of trouble? Well the answer is, umm...actually, let's talk about something else! Like the lovely weather we've been having. Really beautiful with the sunshine and poofy clouds...

Sigh. Oh okay, if you haven't guessed it the answer to that whole staying out of trouble thing is no. But you probably knew that being the smart people you are. 

Jay has been all HOH lately which has meant, while he's been cherishing and encouraging, my poor posterior has suffered a lot, in the last month  especially. Yes, even while sick. Not eating for a whole day is apparently not acceptable. "Kay, you need to give your body what it needs to fight this off, and not taking care of yourself when you know how it affects you just because you don't feel like it is not acceptable" were I believe his exact words. Also assuming you can get away with doing and saying what you want just because you're sick doesn't fly around here either. And even though he took it easy on me because I'm not feeling well, it wasn't exactly pleasant. 

I'm trying hard to behave. The problem with working so much though is that I have a hard time transitioning back from work mentality and moreso too from letting work related stress consume me and affect my whole attitude. You know how I wrote last month about being stubborn? Yeah, more of that. He actually asked me the other night what was going on in my head, why I was doing the things I was doing. 

Anybody else notice that they take advantage of that time after a spanking when you're all vulnerable and cooperative? And sure enough, I didn't let him down. I told him exactly why, using my wonderful talent to perfectly decipher where my head subconsciously was at the time (too bad that talent tends to only work after, huh? Could save me a lot of grief, grrrr!). 

I told him the brutal truth as I realized it. That I liked standing up to him. That it gave me a sense of power to know that I had the guts not to back down. That I didn't like giving him the satisfaction that the threat of a spanking could control me so easily. And so I fight that loss of power and control with my passive aggressive, or when I'm PMSing/super emotional like that night, outright, defiance.

Jay of course reminded me I was looking at things the wrong way. I of course reminded him that those thoughts were only happening at the moment and subconsciously. In the long run I never wanted him to feel disrespected like that by me; I wanted what was best for our marriage and I know that that doesn't help us.

And oh I had of course with that admission stepped nicely into the trap! Can you guess what happened next? The clever man zeroed in on what I said, and declared that if I was truly serious about wanting what was best for our marriage, then I should agree that this needed to be addressed and stopped. Ever the Mr. Fix-it that he is, he said that he would just make spankings to be more memorable, so that that would be what subconsciously directed my thinking instead of my pride. 

Fantastic. 

So he's trying a new position and increased amounts, and UGH! Sometimes this lifestyle isn't easy. But I have to admit I do respect him, he's doing his job, I try to keep that perspective. I just wish he'd go back to being not as good at it, ya know? I'll say it again: Newbies, be careful what you wish for! ;)

Okay, well that's all my latest news! Now I'm going back to sleep to hopefully kick this stupid sickness. Have a good week everyone! :)