The Times Are A-Changin - Continued

So, in between Blogger being evil, my internet being limited, and company staying with us (grrrrrrr!), I have to apologize for being behind on posting! If you didn't see the first part of this post, you can read it here.

Fast forward to a few nights later, after I had finished working. He delivered my postponed consequence, just as he said he would. And boy, did he make his point! OUCH! Afterward, though, I thought things were over. I asked if I could throw away the paper I'd written my infractions on.

"No," Jay said, surprising me. "I want you to keep it. I want you to start understanding what things you're doing wrong, so you can work on them better, okay? Also, starting tomorrow, I want a journal of your daily activities. I want whenever you violate a rule written down, as well as a detailed account of everything you do during the day. I want the time you get up, when you eat breakfast, what you eat, when you start your tasks for the day, when you take a break, how long that break is...I want everything to start being recorded, hour by hour. I'm going to look at it at the end of each day, and at the end of the week. That way, we know what we need to focus on, and you can see where you spend your time."

So allow me to rant for a minute...What has he been reading?! Ugh, it's official: the guy's impossible! I mean, isn't that going a bit overboard? Monitoring everything I do? Apparently, he never wants me to be able to sit down! Like ever! Oh, this is so not cool!

All right, I'll try to stop ranting. So anyway, yeah. That's the new rule. And as you can tell, I don't like it! And is he being mean? Of course! Okay, okay, I'll look at the situation objectively. I guess he's not. You may not know this about me, but I do have definite problems with time management, as much as I hate to admit it (oh, shut up!). It's true. I'm distracted by bright and shiny objects constantly. I have a hard time staying on task. And also, at the end of the day, I have a hard time figuring out where my time went. But the thing is, I do want to change. I believe I can, it's just figuring out how. It's just figuring out how to get the motivation to hyperfocus. That's the positive thing about ADHD, when channeled correctly. When you have the motivation to hyperfocus, you can get done anything! So yes, he's working on plans to help me, to motivate me. He was going to micromanage, as in tell me what to do every second. But he didn't feel comfortable doing that. So now this is his new plan. So yeah, as much as it pains me to say it, I do understand it. But that still doesn't mean I have to like it! Especially since it's accompanied by no computer during the day, at all. I can get on at night, if he sees what I've accomplished, and determines it's all right. But during the day? Nope. He won't budge. I've tried everything.

He also enforced a new bedtime. He made it 10pm. But I negotiated a compromise. So now it's at 11pm, but if I don't do well getting up or going to bed, or for not doing my tasks at all, it becomes a lousy 9pm. More motivation!

Yup, times have changed. And I'm expected to change too. I have to admit his new motivation is pretty effective! Who wants to have to write down that they were "goofing off" for an hour? I certainly don't! Nor do I want to write down what I was really doing! So I've done pretty well so far. I did have one day when I tested the waters slightly. I just didn't feel as motivated and wondered what would happen if I just let things go, just a tiny bit. And was reminded ever so gently that wasn't the best idea! Objectively, what he's doing is a good thing. He's serious.

And I had better be too, apparently! :)